Back to the Present, Which is Like the Movie, but without Michael J. Fox. Bummer. I like Michael J. Fox

Hi, everyone.

I hope I can keep you mildly entertained, without the Delorean, Christopher Lloyd, and the original McDreamy – Michael J. Fox.

I guess I’ll start by filling you in. My hero has been giving me sheer hell for not posting, so here’s my shoddy attempt to make it up to you.

First, I’ll quote my Dad.

The Scene: The Dinner Table
The Background Info: The new candles I bought for my room.
“Sarah, not that I would know from experience. But your room smells like a cheap hooker.”

Now, I’ll tell you all what’s going on. The reason for my lack of posting is plain and simple. I’ve been really sick. I withdrew from college (which completely broke my heart), and did a stint in a nearby hospital (which did a lot of good). It’s been over a month and half since I withdrew, and the doctors still aren’t entirely sure about the diagnosis. There was a diagnosis, originally. But it became apparent that my symptoms varied from the norm, and that there may have been something foul afoot. The past month and half has been complete hell, with different and powerful medications, that all affect me differently, and disturb different areas of my life. I’ve been having horrificly gruesome and disturbing nightmares on a near nightly basis, each nightmare becoming the worst nightmare I’ve had in my life.  The only explanation for the nightmares is the mix of medications that I’m on, but that cocktail cannot be changed until there is a certain diagnosis.

To be perfectly frank, my entire life turned upside down, and I’m still grappling with how exactly to handle that. I’m 19 years old, and I’ve never been so scared or uncertain of anything. Luckily, my parents and friends have rallied behind me in multitudes that I never could have expected, and that makes all the difference. I’m seeing the best doctors I can, and slowly working to going back to school. I signed up for a course in Journalism at the local community college, and I’m looking for a part-time job.

I’ll start blogging again, but I can’t promise anything half as exciting or dreamy as Michael J. Fox or my past posts. But bear with me, I’m trying my hardest.